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Hey guys :)
So this week I have a new blog over something really close to my heart and I hope maybe it'll speak to y'all. It is over a very close friend of mine, but for personal reasonings we are going to call this person Janie. Let me start with some background on good ole Janie.

So Janie grew up in a household of her parents and two other siblings. Now her home life experience was not the greatest and it made her childhood rough. She grew up in a bad area in a big city where lots of things happened that not little children should see. She went to school like everyone else and learned, but no one seemed to notice the bruises or welts. No one could see them... She hated going home and it made it hard for her to grow up in that household. Being the oldest, she took the hits for her siblings.

At first Janie thought she had done something wrong and she was upset by it... Though it seemed to happen all the time and she eventually got use to it. She knew when it was time for another lick. By the age of 13, Janie was in middle school and she found it really easy to bully kids. She felt as though if she could show others how she was feeling by hurting them, they would know to help her and see that she had it bad too. That was not the case. She found herself in lots of trouble in school, which in return made it even worse at home.

Janie eventually became depressed. She felt as though she had turned off her emotions for good.  She didn't know how to love or how to be loved. Her siblings were too young to even know what was happening, let alone her parents didn't care. She felt so alone in the world that doing drugs and drinking were her only escape and her only way to actually feel something. Dating boys in high school was rough. She didn't know what it was like to not get hit so she found herself in every abusive relationship possible...

Now you're probably wondering how the heck no one knows or where Janie's friends were and the answer to those questions is this. Janie did not tell anyone. She had girlfriends that she would hangout with and laugh with, but no one knew it was all a show... Not to get y'all lost, Janie eventually got old enough to stick up for herself and was not hit anymore by about age 14, but that damage did her good. Also with dating those boys throughout high school, she still did not know what love was and she eventually thought it out that she'd be alone the rest of her life.

When high school ended, Janie was so ready to leave and go to college. Finally just get out of her house and start back up on her old ways, or at least thats what she thought. Her first semester, she went out at least three times a week to just completely messed up. She just wanted to feel something because love was not an option for her. Drugs were for sure her go to when she was upset. She was so caught up in drugs, she didn't even realize what was going on around her.

It was second semester that opened her eyes. She was going through the motions of first semester as soon as she got back, but something caught her eye for the first time in a long time. A boy. A warm-hearted, Jesus loving boy that was ready to love a girl like no other. Now Janie didn't know that when she saw him, but she soon found out. This boy went out of his way to show Janie what it meant to be loved. He asked her to church and Janie had no desire to go, but since it was just another boy to her at the time, she said sure.

Janie experienced church for the first time with an open heart and felt the love of our Lord. This boy opened her to this mind-boggling figure. Janie finally felt without the drugs. She realized what it was like to actually be full. The power of Jesus Christ had fulfilled her. She decided that day that she was going to accept the Lord into her heart and move on from the drugs.

That boy that happened to be at the right place at the right time saved Janie and I honestly have no clue where that girl would be without him. Janie is now married with two kids and living her best life with that boy that showed her Jesus and for that I am forever grateful.



xoxo, court ;)



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